Monday, November 4, 2013

Isn't life funny?

It's 10:30 on a Monday morning and I'm sitting at my little kitchen table drinking a Diet Coke and eating mashed potatoes while The Dizzle is working next to me. Why? Because I can, I suppose.

I'm also wearing workout clothes with zero intention of actually working out, if you must know.

You should also know that I allowed myself a pity party over the weekend. If I wanted to cry, I cried. If I wanted to drink (at 11:00am), I drank. If I wanted to lay in bed, I layed in bed. If I wanted to cry again, I cried again.

I know life goes on. I know one day I'll look back on this and most likely say I'm happy it happened that way because now I'm doing ___________________. It's just that right now, that big blank is staring at me, and I don't know what to fill it with because I thought I already answered that question. And if I start to think about that looming blank space for too long, I get all misty eyed with frustration. So for now, I am choosing not to think about what my next step is, thankyouverymuch.

Instead, I am going to try and focus on some positives.

For example, instead of spending my Saturday studying for an "Emergency Procedures" exam that I would have taken today, were I not FIRED, I got to go on a 7.3 mile hike with The Dizzle and see some amazing things. The hike was about an hour drive north of the city at Mount Tamalpais State Park and gave me the 3 1/2 hour peace and quiet that I needed to just think, feel, and reflect. It was so gorgeous, these iPhone pictures just don't do it justice.

^^Trust me, you don't want to see what my face looked like.^^


As bummed out and disappointed as I am right now, I can't help but feel so thankful for such a great support system in my life. At one point this weekend, I looked to The Dizzle and said, "As shitty as this situation is, I know I'm going to be okay because I have you in my life and we always figure things out." <--Sometimes we say really cheesy things to each other.

But not just him, I have all of you guys, too. Every comment/text/email/tweet that was sent my way truly made me smile and feel better in all of this and I'm just so thankful for you all. What would we do without our friends and family to be there to help pick us up at our lowest of lows?

Anyway, I'm off to wander the aisles of Trader Joe's because we have a $100 giftcard and frankly, I've got nothing else to do. Sayonara suckers. <--Just kidding, you're not suckers.


xoxo


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20 comments:

  1. Chin up! Maybe this all happened because something better is round the corner for you. I can't imagine how you have been feeling after reading how excited you were. Just remember you are still young and you will figure things out.xx

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  2. Oooooo........I want to go on that hike sometime. Looks fairly easy and the scenery is gorgeous! You just gotta try for another airline because I was counting on those discounts to make trips out to CA more often. (Too soon???)

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  3. Hey, what about United? We have a huge hub out there! When I flew to San Diego this weekend, our whole crew was based out of San Fran! Maybe check it out! If you need a recommendation/etc. let me know! <3 <3

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  4. Awww sorry Mish, I was so happy for you reading how excited you were in your posts! But I'm sure there are better things around some corner, we just have to find it. And I completely understand when you say "that big blank is staring at me right now" because the man I thought would be the one just kinda broke up with me recently and it feels like sh*t but we'll get over it!!! At least you still have the Dizzle :)

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  5. I'm sorry about your bad news. It's very sweet that The Dizzle is so supportive of you. :)

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  6. I've been so sad for you...I know something great is around the corner, but it sure does suck balls right now I'm sure. I wish there was something anyone could do to make it better, but just like anything else sucky, only time will heal it. You will one day laugh about being fired over batteries, but until then, stock up on 2 Buck Chuck and drink girl, drink!

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  7. Im so excited to see what that _____ turns into. Knowing you it will be awesome!!

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  8. Maybe you're supposed to move to FL and be my friend? Lol. Or lay on the beach and drink. One of those / things I think.

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  9. So sorry to hear the news Mish :( I know you will have an amazing and exciting "next chapter" just around the corner. Can't wait to follow along to see what it is.

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  10. I am glad that you got to enjoy a nice hike this weekend :) And as much as all this sucks you right, you're so lucky to have that great boyfriend there right beside through it all

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  11. I was sad to hear about how your dream job unfolded, seemed a little harsh. Maybe apply for another airline? If not I'm off Mondays and down for some day drinking and wandering sf!

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  12. Can I just say that 1. I love you and the fact that you were eating mashed potatoes and diet coke for breakfast. and 2. BATTERIES?! You HAVE to be kidding me. Please, please don't be too hard on yourself. That is something that could have happened to anyone. And if that is all it took to be let go, I don't think that's a job I would want. Talk about walking on egg shells every single day. Good riddance.

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  13. Having a really good support system is really important and miso glad that you have a great (and hawt) one.

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  14. Beautiful hike! Those skies!?! Man, I miss blue skies. We just don't see many of those in China, and when we do they're still kind of a dull blue. Boo pollution. Ya! For beautiful hikes that refresh your lungs! (and not endanger them like lately in Qingdao! I can't decide what's worse- not working out or working out outside when the pollution level is at a "dangerously high"!) And, it's so true! There are things ahead for you! That blank slate will be colored brightly soon enough, I'm sure of it. Can't wait to journey along and see what's in store for you.

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  15. Oh! And here's a random maybe super obvious/dumb question How do you get your pictures the longer, big size? Do you resize it and then push "original size" in blogger? If so, what size do you size them? Thank you!

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  16. Sending you SO MUCH LOVE from London.. xxxxx

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  17. Hang in there. Youre going to come out the other end of this.

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  18. I read your last post and I was so frustrated for you, but reading this I'm glad you are taking the time out to process all this. Hang in there :0)

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  19. such a beautiful views!! i'm reading your previous post too and i was shocked! but dun worry, you still have sweet follower like me (i'm just kidding) haha.your blog always have a place in my heart.

    xo josephine
    www.joselovincolors.com

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  20. Mish, I am so sorry about what happened with your job with Virgin. I'm totally bummed about it. I hope you find something that will make up for the loss of this.

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