Thursday, October 31, 2013

Goodbye Virgin.

This was definitely not a blog post I expected to ever have to write. So as I sit here with tear-stained cheeks and a heavy heart, I figured I might as well get this over with and share with you the events of my life-changing day.

As of 12:00pm today, I am no longer a part of Virgin America's family and it truly saddens me to type that.

It's also possible I'm still in a state of shock. I've been going through major ups and downs with my emotions since this devastating news and I'm not quite sure how to handle it just yet (other than immediately opening a bottle of pinot noir. obviously.) I cry. I feel numb. I've been in bed for hours. I cry again. I stare vacantly. Then I drink more wine. And then eeevvvery now and then there's a little glimmer of hope that things always have a way of working themselves out and soon enough I'll realize why this learning experience was a good thing for me. Then I get sad again, cry a little, and take another swig.

So you're probably wondering what the hell happened because wait, wasn't I just ranting and raving basically every single day about this new adventure of mine and how much I was loving it and acing every single exam and sharing all of the great plans I had for my life that revolved around this new career?! Yes, I was.

Until today.

Yesterday in training, the instructors asked us to all take out our "required items" that we need to have with us at all times when we're flying. Things like our manual, ID badge, passport, flashlight, extra batteries, working watch, etc. So I pull out my manual, badge, passport, flashlight, watch..... except, wait, I don't have any extra batteries. Shoot. Well, I can just borrow some from my friend because I remember my teacher saying that was acceptable to do. No big deal. Plus, this is training, we're not actually flying right now, so it should be okay.

"Michelle, do you have your extra batteries?"

"No," I reply a little sheepishly, because it's not usually like me to be unprepared, especially in important situations like this. But, at break time, I got 2 batteries from my friend and brought them to the instructors to show that I now had some.

Everything was A-Okay, right? W-R-O-N-G.

Apparently, because they weren't my batteries, it was a performance issue. No ifs, ands, or buts. (And since earlier in the training, I had turned my cell phone off at my desk instead of outside the class, this was now considered my second issue and was grounds for a discussion.)

So today, at lunch time, I was pulled aside by my instructor and the manager of the training program to have that discussion. And I thought it would be just that: a discussion. But unfortunately, it was explained to me that it was a second performance issue and I knew this was a required item but did not comply. Which, yes, technically is true, but, but, wait....you're letting me go over BATTERIES?!

So then here's the part where I usually start to go through the mourning period of anger, but then have to stop myself, because as much as I hate to admit it, it is completely, 100% my fault. I should have known better. Here I was focusing so much on trying to succeed in the program, studying for all of my exams, participating in class, being in compliance, when I overlooked something so simple. Batteries. Fucking batteries. Excuse my language.

I'm sad.
I'm embarrassed.
I'm disappointed.
I'm confused.
I'm shocked.
But mostly, I feel like I've let everyone down.

I haven't even told my friends yet. I don't know what to say. It's only been three weeks and I got kicked out of training? Me?? How is this possible? I just don't understand. And what's worse is that for the last month, I've been building this up so much and telling everyone and anyone how excited I was, and now? Oh, just kidding, I was lying about it all.

A few people in my class told me, "Don't worry, chin up! You'll find something BETTER!"

And all I can think is: This WAS my better!

This was what I felt like I had been waiting for all my life. I felt that I had finally found something I was passionate about. Not just flying, but the company in general! It was Virgin America that made me excited to be there every day and grow with the company. I don't want to just hop on over to Southwest for god's sake, it just wouldn't be the same! (No offense to any SW folks out there, but I mean, come on.)

I don't really know what else to say at this point, so excuse me while I lay back down with my Pinot and sulk a little more.

I'll tell you one thing though, I'm keeping that damn trench coat!


P.S. Would it be too soon to go out tonight and dress up as a flight attendant for Halloween? mmmyeah... too soon.


xoxo


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57 comments:

  1. What!?!? I'm kinda shocked over this! I'm so sorry Michelle. I know this was such an exciting opportunity for you and this totally sucks. :( I could say, "chin up! it'll get better! something even more awesome will come along!" and while I think that's all true, I also think sometimes you just need to sulk and be a little sad for a bit. This sitch totally blows so indulge in that extra wine and give yourself a little treat. You deserve it. xo

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  2. ohmygosh! I am so sorry :( that is just crazy that they let you go over that. Don't feel embarrassed about it at all, it's kind of a ridiculous reason. They are gonna be missing out on you now and all your blogger buddies booking flights with them to see you! Drink up tonight, tomorrow they'll be old news ;)

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  3. Mish. I died a little inside for you when I read this. I am so so sorry this happened! I'd come drink that Pinot with you if I could. Big hug.

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  4. Oh my goodness! This sounds completely insane to me...I had no idea how intense the training program was. Ugh. I hope you feel better soon! I want to say everything happens for a reason, but I know in moments like this that is the last thing you want to hear.

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  5. That really sucks, I'm really sorry. I'm shocked that it was over batteries.. I mean, really!? I wish I had some amazing words of wisdom or something.. but I'm sort of at a loss for words.. And girl, you keep that trench coat!

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  6. Nooooooooo! I'm so sorry Michelle :( it's their loss! And as far as how you're feeling, take your time to navigate through your emotions but at the same time don't let this hold you back from picking yourself up, dusting yourself off and doing what you do. You are alot stronger than you think are mama! Sending positive energy your way!

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  7. oh no im so sorry! i've been reading all about your excitement and was so happy for you to have found your new adventure, but have always been a bit lazy in commenting (sorry!). now that i've read this i feel really upset for you too. i'm so sorry this happened and i know it might not sound believable now but i'm sure THE right next move is out there for you! don't lose hope. sip more wine, cry a bit more, and feel better after!!!! :) xx

    rachel x
    blush&brunch

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  8. Oh Mish, this is terrible. I'm SO sorry. But it's over such a ridiculous little thing, there has to be a big reason for it. I mean seriously - I can't even - no. It's really silly. Just you wait, something bigger and better is waiting just around the corner for you!

    Big hug!

    xoxo Miriam

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  9. BUMMER!!!! =( I'm so sorry, Mish.

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  10. Fucking batteries, alright. I know it's related to a bigger thing but fucking really?! Most insane thing I have ever heard. Your friends are right though, you WILL find something better and it'll be right around the corner. You'll see. Sending you cuddles from New Zealand!
    <3

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  11. Oh nooo :( Call me ignorant but can you apply for another airline company? That's rough.

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  12. Wow!!! :( I think this is a tad extreme. They let you go over batteries?! Wow! Hugs friend.

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  13. My lord, that is shitty news :( So sorry for you, chica. You are brave to share so openly and I hope things start looking up really soon.

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  14. Awwww, honey, I'm so sorry. I feel horrible for you because I know how excited you were... I've been following along on the journey and was excited FOR you. I think the reason for the dismissal is absolutely ridiculous though. I think it's great that you can accept responsibility for it but STILL. Overkill in my opinion. You have a support system here, remember that. :)

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  15. Look, it sucks shit and is horrible, but as we say here in Australia, pull yourself up by your bootstraps and get on with it. You failed at Virgin, big freakin' deal, use this as a lesson learned and instead of wallowing in your pity party go and apply to another airline. If you REALLY want to be an attendant, you WILL NOT let this stop you, you will go out an apply to another airline until you get the job! So suck it up and go get em! Why let this minor set back stop you? Learn from it and go get another airline.

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  16. My heart literally sank when I read this. I know it's hard to hear that you WILL find something better right now, but it's so true. Let yourself grieve this experience and then pick yourself up and show them what kind of employee they lost! Sending good vibes your way!

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  17. I am so sorry to hear this. *HUGE HUGS* I trained to be a flight attendant as well and I remember one of my best friends got let go in a similar way. It totally sucks and it's not fair, but it will get better. It's a total cliche but everything does happen for a reason, even if that reason isn't clear until much later.

    xoxo

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  18. Oh no! SO sorry to read this news, but don't let this stop you from finding what makes you happy! Keep that chin up! <3

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  19. Sending hugs from Canada! I'm so sorry things turned out this way with Virgin... seriously, over batteries?! Don't be yourself up for that, it's Virgin's loss for letting you go AND they're silly enough to let you go over batteries. But do listen to your friends and believe there's something better down the road for you! <3

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  20. :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
    my eczema just flared up reading this... Oh Mish, I'm so sorry :( I am saddened to read this. Chin up, girlfriend. Sending you some mad asian hugs to you. I guess we can say is that those 3 weeks at Virgin will be a learning period. I'm pretty sure better things are coming along the way. Like apply for SQ? xoxo.

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  21. Batteries??? I'm so confused!?! Their loss anyways. Something is going to come along that is going to top that!. Don't be too upset for too long.

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  22. No way! I can't believe that! I'm so sorry.

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  23. What the fuuuuqqqqqqqq. What stuck up douches. BATTERIES?! Go to Lufthansa. They are all international flights. Just bring a shit ton of batteries. Sorry though lovey <333

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  24. My heart hurts for you, Mish. I know none of us will completely understand what happened since we weren't there, but we're all here for support and love! I've never been in a similar situation, but this summer I was demoted from a promotion I had received 3 months earlier. It completely broke me. I was offered my old position at my company, and I was extremely conflicted about what to do. Eventually the pressure of finding a new and better job got to me, and I took my old position back. I still think about what happened, and it still makes me furious. However, I am slowly starting to realize that maybe my original position is the one that is right for me. I was super stressed at the other position I held, and therefore was miserable. It sucks to think about but maybe getting demoted was one of the best things that happened to me. Maybe getting let go from Virgin will turn out to be a blessing for you.

    I can tell from reading your posts about training that being a flight attendant IS your path...and I think you shouldn't let this get you down or stop you from achieving what you want to do. I know you're hurting right now, but I also know that you are a strong, capable woman and you'll do great things. Just because this airline doesn't want you doesn't mean you should give up. Good luck, and we're all rooting for you! (except maybe that Aussie above? what a dbag...)

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  25. awww this is AWFUL! i had a sorta similar, but not quite as bad, eexpereince. i finally got offered a dream job and was super excited and ready to quit my job, but just waiting for them to make it official. i had even started packing my office up. then they rescinded my job offer over a technicality and was devastated. i was also given the news about 1 hour before i was throwing my parents a huge anniversary party. ugh. i'm still trying to tell myself that there was a lesson to be learned there, which i'm sure you are too. but until we find the lesson it just SUCKS. so sorry and chin up girl!!
    -- jackie @ jade and oak

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  26. Girl- my heart is breaking for you! I've loved reading your excitement over this! Damn batteries. But I agree with the others- this isn't the end for you! If you are meant to be a flight attendant (which I truly believe you are), it will happen!! Big hugs and LOTS of wine!

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  27. I'm so heartbroken for you! Knowing you, this won't keep you down for long. In the meantime, CLINK! That's me clinking my wine glass against yours.

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  28. I kept expecting you to say just kidding at the end of the post. I am so sorry! I bet you are so incredibly frustrated and that sucks so bad. I bet you'll never look at stupid batteries the same. I had no idea it was that rigorous. Hoping you find something incredibly awesome!

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  29. Oh my gosh!! I feel for you. My husband was let go from his job for something that makes no sense. Just like this, no sense. It just baffles my mind. Stay strong, things will work out. They are working out for us and they will work out for you too. Stay positive.

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  30. Oh my, I am so sorry! It seems like that was such a foolish thing for them to let you go over, it seems like a discussion or even a "stern" reprimand would have been enough. This is such an unfortunate situation.

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  31. Oh sweetheart, my heart is breaking for you so bad right now. I can tell just through your blog how much this meant to you and even if it sounds trite, I'm totally praying for you. I know you are meant for something bigger, even if you have to take a step back to get there. You're going to be okay!! Sending much love!!

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  32. Seriously my heart is aching for you. Mostly because I know how much this job meant to you but also because you feel like you somehow let US down. First of all, we loved you LONG before this, back when you were just a San Diegan and not a well-traveled phenom like you are. Just know that even though you are hurting now, something just wasn't meant to be with them and when the time is right, you will find something that fits you perfectly. I just know it with all my heart love, I have to believe that. Just know my heart is aching with you and I seriously am giving you a million trillion virtual hugs.

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  33. That is the stupidest thing in the world I've ever heard, cannot believe they let you go over 'batteries'. There's strict, and then there's ridiculous. I'm so sorry for you, because it sounded like this was perfect for you and you were loving it, but it is totally and completely their loss. Insane, truly.

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  34. Oh my gosh, Michelle...I'm so so sorry! This is so crazy. I was NOT expecting this post at all. It seriously made my heart ache. I don't know what else to say other than I'm so sorry. I would be doing the same things you are...drinking wine and going to sleep. I'm sending you lots of hugs and love virtually. :(

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  35. Ah Michelle. I'm so sorry! Praying for you. You looked super cute in that trench coat, too! Girrrl. Keep it!

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  36. Oh Michelle, I'm gutted for you. I really hope that you don't let this hiccup stop you from pursuing something that you were obviously so passionate about. Here's hoping the Pinot is helping (how could it not!). Know that you've got a lot of reader support behind you whatever you do, know that you rock a red trench coat, and know that sometimes life pulls you back, just to shoot you even further that you could originally imagine.
    x

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  37. I'm really sorry! That totally sucks. You have a right to be sad for a while. I'm sad for you!

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  38. I got fired from a job I loved. I mean, I LOVED it. A "new guy" who was an attorney came on board and basically lied about me. I did not do the things he said I did, and losing that job broke my heart. Shattered it. Because it was the job I wanted my whole life and I was good at it.
    But you know what? My son was very young and we had a great time sucking off of unemployment and, just as it was ending, I found another job and he started Kindergarten. My point is sometimes life is nothing but a pile of crap, but the "closing a door, opening a window" thing is true. I know it's not as cool to be a flight attendant at American or Delta, but the end result would be the same-you would get to fly all over and see things. Think about it. xo

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  39. Aww I'm so sorry to hear this, Michelle!! :( I know I can't say anything that will make it better now, but just know that YOU are AWESOME and destined for great things :) :)

    xo

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  40. I understand you must be so sad and disappointed. But I have to say... if they let you go for something like batteries, during TRAINING even, it seems to me like they would have been a bitch to work for. Sometimes things can see great from the outside, and then once you get in on the inside, you see what they're REALLY like. :(

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  41. You were so excited for this! I'm so sorry :(
    Nevertheless, it's okay to be unhappy for a while - especially over something as small as batteries! Batteries! I thought it'd be something much more serious :/
    But, when a door closes, many more windows open (:

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  42. I am so sorry :( I can't believe this happened over the smallest thing.

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  43. Sorry to hear about what happened! Even I could tell how much passion you had for that job and company. It will get better I promise. When one door closes another one opens.

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  44. Oh no! I am soo sorry! I hate that. I was wondering if your instagram photo of "getting frustrations out on the trail" had something to do with your job, but I assumed it was because you got stationed in NY, where you didn't want to be, I didn't realize it'd be something so small like that. I understand that they have their "standards to live by", but I can't imagine getting kicked out over some batteries... especially since they mentioned that you could borrow from a friend if you needed to, so it shouldn't be a big deal... but then they went and made it a big deal. I'm so sorry!! I do believe you'll find something and figure out what all of that hard work was for, but I know me (or anyone else) saying it, doesn't make it better. I'll just be praying for you... I can't imagine how frustrated and upset you must be!

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  45. Michelle, I'm soooo sorry to hear this news! I'd be a mess too...Take your time to "mourn" but do know that everything happens for a reason, every thing that happens teaches us something...

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  46. Mish, I'm so sorry! I can't believe you were let go over batteries. So many hugs to you.

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  47. Wow, oh my gosh Michelle! I'm so sorry to be reading this---I haven't commented much lately because I haven't been keeping up with blogging but this just stinks!! Every post you had written about you training made me smile because of how much joy you had your writing made me smile! that sentence makes NO sense but i'm sure you get my gist! take your time to mourn but get back out there - you will find your passion in life!

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  49. arrrrrrrrghhhhhh! THIS is so something that would happen to me. Forget to write your name on the test/extra batteries/etc. I just have no words, other than the obvious: YOU ARE AN AWESOME PERSON! And, someday, you'll be CEO of Virgin and can laugh about this, cause life is stupid ironic like that:-) Hugs and kisses and bottles of wine to you this week!!! xoxo

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  50. I am soo, soo sorry again. Sending you wine and hugs from NYC!

    xx
    Kelly
    Sparkles and Shoes

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