So as not to spiral into a deep and dark depression, while our bank accounts are slowly, but surely, dwindling and we have still yet to find a job or permanent home, I have to muster deep within myself and do my best to focus on this time in my life as a sort of "Funemployment" opportunity.
For example, until I do commit myself to a job that comes with responsibilities and such, I should be thankful for the things that I can do until then.
1. Say yes to that 5th (or 6th) glass of wine just because it's a random Tuesday...or Wednesday...or any day, really, because it doesn't matter; I don't have to wake up before 9am in the morning and I can stay in my yoga pants all day while lounging in bed and watching the new season of Arrested Development.
2. Stroll the streets on a random week day, while the sun is high in the sky. Then causally stop at a Starbucks, perch myself on the patio, and peruse the new People magazine while sipping on an Iced Coffee.
Have I actually done that?
But the option is there if I want it, and that's really all that matters right now, now isn't it?
3. Catch a matinee at the local movie theatre in order to beat the night rush and save me a few dollars. (Again, haven't done this, but I'm scrounging for reasons to enjoy this unemployment, here. Stick with me.)
4. Head to Union Square at 2pm on a Tuesday to exchange something at H&M. Not only do I miss the bus crowd, but I also miss the bazillion tourists that I'd normally find on a Saturday if I were to have that thing called a job that kept me from being able to go on such errands during the week.
Perks of unemployment, my friends. PERKS.
Let me tell you something. Last night, when it was super crowded, I got stuck sitting next to this big black man. Him being big, or black for that matter, has nothing to do with this story, but I thought I'd give you a visual to go with the following scenario.
I sat next to him, and then I reach behind my head to pull my hair out from my jacket.
You know, a normal "fix your hair flip". No big deal.
THEN the man says to me, "Don't flip your hair at me!"
And I looked at him. Stared for a beat or two out of confusion, then said, because I'm SO NICE and thought maybe I had hit him with my hair, even though that was unlikely,
"Oh, I'm sorry."
THEN he said, "You know exactly what you were trying to do."
?????? Yes actually, I was trying to get my hair out of my jacket, weirdo.
So THEN The Dizzle PUNCHED HIM IN HIS FACE AND SAID, "Lay off my woman!"
Okay, that last part didn't happen at all. But boy, I thought about that scenario in detail because it was the only way to calm myself and not actually say anything to the man for the rest of the ride.
Do you ever do that? Have someone say something rude to you and then you're just stunned with silence, but the whole time you're thinking of so many clever remarks you can say back but you're just too nervous to say anything? Happens to me all the time. I'm debating on whether that's a good thing or not.
Anyway, where was I?
Oh yeah, "Funemployment."
I'm trying to stay positive, and for the most part I am. I know a job will come sooner or later. In fact, I had another phone interview this morning and I didn't get off the phone crying, so I'm taking that as a good sign. ;)
Point is, I am focusing on staying present and enjoying each day. Because if there's one thing I've learned, it's that nothing is permanent. So enjoy it while you can, am I right?
....or is it Wednesday?