Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Jet Lag's a Bitch.

{That's a #nofilter sunrise right there.}

We didn't sleep a wink last night.
Literally, not a wink.

So instead, we laid there in the dark and talked for awhile.
I'm not going to lie, I had to cry for a bit.
It's only been 3 days and I began to feel extremely homesick. 
Then I started to doubt myself.
Does this mean I'm not cut out to be a world traveler?
How come I miss my Mom so much?
Will I feel like this every night?

You know what I think it is, though?
I just feel so...disconnected with everyone.

My phone doesn't work, I don't have internet access, I can't just call someone at any time or check Instagram to see what people are up to.
And I don't want to sound ungrateful for my situation, because I wouldn't want to be anywhere else but here. Really.

It's like this.
You know when you were a kid and you went to a friend's for a slumber party?
During the day and evening, everyone is having so much fun.
You're playing games, you're hanging out with friends, you're having the best food.
Then it's time for bed.
The lights go out, everyone starts falling asleep, and it gets very quiet.
It was during that time when I would start to feel homesick and just want to be home with my family.

Or is that just me?

Verner said it's normal to feel like this during the "transition period."
{So how come he wasn't crying?}

I took a deep breath and reminded myself to be present and appreciate my current, wonderful situation, with my current, wonderful company.

Then, before we knew it, the sun started to rise.
And oh my god, was it the most beautiful sunrise or what?

I can't even remember the last sunrise I saw, but I'm pretty sure it had nothing on this one.


Today is a new day. In freaking SPAIN.
So I need to just man up and stop my crying, because this is a once in a lifetime experience and I am going to be thankful for each day I get to do this.

Thanks for listening.

xoxo

35 comments:

  1. What a beautiful sunset! How long are you in Spain for?

    Kelsey
    storiesofkel.blogspot.com

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  2. gorgeous sunset... and in SPAIN! So exciting.

    And so you know, you're not the only one that feels that way at times. It's tough to uproot yourself from everything you know to a place where you know nothing. Verner was right, it's just a transitional phase, and big boys dont cry. :]

    wishing you the best!

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  3. I haven't gone world traveling yet, but I'd imagine that's pretty normal. I feel like sometimes we take the little things for granted, like being able to keep up with people's lives by just picking up our phone and either giving a call or glancing through one of our oh-so-many forms of social media. But like you said, I'm sure it'll get easier. Hope you guys have an amazing day in Spain today!

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  4. I always got super homesick at sleepovers too. Actually, I get super homesick now at bachelorette parties! Enjoy the travels, we'll be here when you get back :)

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  5. You Got This! Spain ain't ready for you ;)

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  6. I know the exact feeling you are describing about slumber parties... I had it for the first month or so that I was living in South Africa... luckily it started to slowing fade away as SA became a second home :) That sunrise is absolutely stunning, thanks so much for sharing it here!

    xxx
    Jenna

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  7. I had those same feelings when I went off to college and I was only 2 hours from home! I imagine it's completely normal - this is a HUGE change! I'm sure V Dizzle wanted to cry too, but he had to stay strong for you :)

    Can't wait to read more about your travels!

    -Samantha
    itsallinthedeats.blogspot.com

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  8. I think once you settled in you will get more comfortable and be just fine. :)

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  9. Hey Mish, you so totally rock. And the sadness, it'll pass. And next week, you'll look at VDizz in the middle of the night and smack him for snoring too much...just like the good ol' days at home! :)

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  10. That sunrise HAD to make you feel better! WOW! Although you're abroad, Happy Thanksgiving to you and V!

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  11. Oh Michelle, I <3 you. Never stop posting your true feelings, I would be lost without your honesty. It'll get easier and you will be having more and more fun before you now it. You will start to wonder how you ever lived a "normal" 9-5 life. Cherish this time, but don't block out your feelings :)

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  12. how beautiful - and you're only on DAY THREE. just wait for all the other beautiful sights your travels will bring, and all the fun you will be having. but i won't lie, i'd be homesick too and i think it's totally natural. but your family will be there when you return from paradise :)

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  13. I know you'll be fine there. Of course it's normal to feel those feelings. I was gone for 10 days in China and the first couple of days I was sad and couldn't even look at a picture of a dog because it made me miss Bronx...and I knew I was coming home in 10 days. Let yourself feel it. You'll be reconnected to the world soon enough (and then you might wish you weren't!).

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  14. I know what you mean! But I'm sure these feelings will stop and you'll be so happy!

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  15. Aw man girl I totally feel you. But seriously, you're on the trip of a lifetime, and I know that in a few days that feeling will fade. It won't go away; I mean, you'll miss your friends and family. But it won't hurt as much :)

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  16. Beautiful sunset! Being homesick is totally normal! But being disconnected sure sucks, hope you find some internet soon! I'm sure you'll start to enjoy the adventure soon!

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  17. I know what you mean about having a hard time disconnecting and the feeling of being homesick. I am SUCH a home-body. But girl... cherish and enjoy every moment away!! Take this time to get to know yourself, VDizzle, and THE WORLD!! You will get used to the quiet times and you may never want to come back to busy reality!

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  18. That is totally normal! Just take it all in, the home-sickness and all because it's all part of the experience!

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  19. I was the same way as kid!! I think this was just your first shock of being away and knowing it will be for a long time. You will adjust like Verner said. It's not to say that homesickness still won't hit you from time to time, but it won't make you as sad. Hopefully your next place will have internet access! Good luck and have fun!!

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  20. 4AM is always when the worst thoughts and feelings of homesickness start creeping up. But I think that sunrise would make up for it.
    -Jess

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  21. Girl it is totally normal to feel that way! Just cry and get it out of your system, it's the fastest way to move past it :)

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  22. Vernor's right - there is always a transition period - and so are you. Nobody thinks clearly when they haven't slept for 48+ hours. If the feelings don't go away once you're well rested, remember Vernor's advice. I'd say the first two months are the hardest, but after you climb that mountain, it's easy walking all the way down. Keep reminding yourself to look around and take in the beauty around you and it will get easier!

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  23. Great analogy girlfriend, I totally know what you mean about the sleepover. I get homesick SO easily, hence my apprehension at travel in general. Just know we're all rooting for you and the crazy journey you're taking! <3

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  24. I think your'e just tired! You'll be fine :)

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  25. It's not at all unusual. I have to travel for work all the time and the homesickness kills me. There's something to be said for being around your own stuff. But what you can do, and you probably already know this, is go out and buy a cheap crappy phone from a phone shop (I think they have Vodaphone in Spain but i'm not 100% sure but thats a good one). Also pick up a pay as you go SIM card from the same shop and put some money on it. Go to some market stall or other that is selling tacky phone covers and get your phone unlocked (even better if you can buy your crappy phone from them). That way, whatever country you go to that sells pay as you go SIM cards (and they are like, max $30) you can always have a phone number for people to call you and text you on if it's late and you're nowhere near a computer for Skype - it won't help for data though. Just a little travelling tip, hope it helps!

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  26. Beautiful sunrise!!

    I think it's definitely the lack of communication that's making you homesick. I never get homesick, but when I worked on a cruise ship for 5 months, the internet was TERRIBLE and I had a working phone ONCE a week! I cried all the time because I didn't want people to think I didn't want to keep in touch with them. I literally COULDN'T. It sucks. But once you're really busy and traveling more it'll get better!

    Enjoy Spain!!

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  27. Its okay to feel home sick. You just changed your entire life! Its a great adventure but it doesn't mean its not challenging or scary. Don't feel bad for feeling what you feel. Just do like you said, be present and just try to take everything in! Most people never get to do or see the things you are doing and home will always be there when you get back. Soak it up and lean on your support system when it gets tough. :) Happy thanksgiving love!

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  28. Hang in there! I know it can be very hard & tough but I am sure it will be more then worth it to stick it out :) & its very pretty there!

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  29. I think I would be the same way. At least you have your man beside you to cuddle up to at night and remind you of the exciting days ahead of you.

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  30. Take it from an ExPat : You're going to be okay. And try to stay busy - it really helps! - Jenna

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  31. It wil get easier!! I think it is definitely the same feeling as when you are little at a sleepover :)

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  32. I think you need a purpose. When I went to Korea for a year, I had my teaching to keep me busy and interested. Maybe you could find something to volunteer for and give you a reason to get up before noon every day?
    Love you!

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  33. Ah, you will adjust. In a couple of weeks you will look back on this time and be like "woah, can you believe that a mere few weeks ago I was homesick and sad? Now I'm having the time of my life!" You have Verner with you which is good... when I moved to Scotland all alone it took me about six weeks to get over my homesickness! But I did, and I loved it. It's hard being disconnected as well... it takes some getting used to. xox.

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  34. You're going to have the most amazing adventure; I'm so endlessly jealous. Just started following your blog via your twitter follow and I think what you're doing is amazing. You will have your ups and downs, and be incredibly homesick at some points...BUT, you're going to meet fab people, drink lots of vino tinto when you get to Saville and Granada, have life changing experiences, and see the world with your best man. Your life will never be the same! I was in Malaga, Saville, and Grenada in April, let me know if you need any traveling tips.

    Great to meet you, look forward to following your adventure!
    Allison @ Lawfully Lost

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