Just one of those days...

I'm having "one of those days"...and it's only 9:30 in the morning. You know, those days where you just feel drained of any positive thought. The kind where you have a really hard time mustering up the energy to get through the day. Where all you can do is think about things you want differently in your life and question the major aspects of your life. Sounds pretty depressing, doesn't it? It just becomes this endless cycle. I think these negative thoughts about myself and my life and it only makes me feel worse.

The funny thing is, I know exactly what to do to get myself out of this funk. I've read enough "Positive Thinking" books to know the right tools to get me back on my positive kick. I've had more conversations than I can remember with my mom and dad on how to question reality and come to the realization that the only reason I feel these negative things is because I believe my thoughts on what I perceive to be "reality." I make these stories up in my head: "He doesn't care enough about me." "I should have a better job." "I'm ugly and should lose weight." Then, the kicker is...I believe these stories as truth instead of just letting those thoughts go and recognizing them as just that: Thoughts. And even though I know how to get back to my spunky, self-loving 'tude, I don't want to. It's as if I just want to throw a pity-party for myself and wallow in it for awhile. Why? I could not tell you. Sigh...

Hour and a half later....


Okay, Michelle! Get yourself together! You are strong and beautiful. You are loving and kind. You are independent and self-sufficient. You attract positivity in your life. You know what you want. You make things happen in your life. You are healthy.



...Hey, it's a start.